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2006-12-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

19 le

its was a cool birthday i must say
acted as a psycho in a performance at pa(not everyone gets that chance esp on their bdays)
not much of a celebration compared to last years
though the gift was awfully cool i must say
TRANSFORMERS!!!
and it is one which is made perfectly down to the last detail
totally cool

no idea who chipped in to the gift though
anyways thx to one and all who did
esp sam who chose the presents
thx a million dude

shall we start planning for a xmas or new year's celebration?

zun bo....

2006-10-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

Sagittarius

Your most likeable trait: OPTIMISM

Ruled by Jupiter, planet of fortune, you appear to breeze through life. You are Lady Luck's companion who seems always to be in the right place at the right time. Naturally, this makes for a cheerful and ebullient disposition. You have your dark moments, but clouds roll over quickly. You are too interested in what is going to happen tomorrow to fret long about what went wrong today.

In Sagittarius, the enthusiasm of fire, the restless mutable quality, and the jovial influence of Jupiter combine to produce an expansive personality who cannot be confined. Independence is your guiding principle. You are a free, adventurous spirit who thrives on new ideas and constant change of scene, Somewhere you picked up a chronic case of wanderlust, and you have no desire to be cured. The grass is always greener someplace else, and your restless, inquiring nature requires travel, excitement, and the unconventional. Sagittarius, like its opposite sign Gemini, wants to know—but whereas Gemini's are happy to sample a new idea, Sagittarians will follow it as far as it will go. In the zodiac, Sagittarius symbolizes the search for wisdom; this is the sign of the philosopher and the explorer.

Sagittarians are hard to pin down emotionally. You don't welcome enduring, profound relationships. Sooner or later, you'll unknot the tie that binds.

Friendship, however, is a different matter. You are always willing to be a pal—and you are the nicest friend in the zodiac. Kind, openhearted, jovial, completely free of malice, you are always doing favors for others. Your way of helping doesn't put the recipient under heavy obligation. "No strings" is a guiding Sagittarian motto.

Prizing freedom, you willingly grant it to others. You don't meddle in other people's plans, interfere with what they think best for themselves, and you aren't possessive or jealous.

A sense of humor is among your most endearing traits. High-spirited and congenial, you are a gifted conversationalist, a wonderful storyteller, and a born entertainer. Writing, publishing, TV, communications are enterprises in which there are many Sagittarians. Famous Sagittarians in these fields include Noel Coward, James Thurber, Mark Twain, Garson Kanin, William Bukley, and Woody Allen.

You Jupiter-ruled people are unusually versatile and do a number of tasks well. What you lack is staying power. Before you finish with one project, you are off to meet the next challenge. One reason is that you become bored doing the same things, but another is simply that you must move on—and up.

In business you are imaginative and clever, ready to accept the new and to use it. But you perform best when there's something really important at stake. When you're down to your last chance to win, when it's now or never, you'll put everything you own on the turn of a card and redouble the stakes. You believe in your luck.

You are straightforward and honest. Your frankness makes you easy to deal with because one doesn't have to spend time figuring out the hidden significance of unspoken clues or nuances. There is no hidden significance. What you say is what you mean. Your blunt remarks are not said in spite, however, but simply because you don't know how to beat around the bush. Ironically, you are rather thin-skinned and too easily hurt by a thoughtless action or careless rebuff.

Sagittarians are among the most likeable people in the zodiac. True, you can be extravagant and wasteful, even on occasion reckless and irresponsible. True, your life is full of forgotten appointments, missed deadlines, unfinished projects. True, your emotions can be shallow and your commitments almost nonexistent. Overriding everything, though is the fact that you're fun to be with. So what if you promise the moon and everyone knows you won't deliver. You know it too. There's nothing underhanded or secretive in the way you deal. You play with all your cards on the table.

Impetuous, buoyant, charming, you hitch your wagon to the merry-go-round of life and ride it with insouciant elegance.

Up to this point still not bad quite accurate.

This charming lover can be a poor choice as a husband. The symbol of his sign is the Archer, and he is always on the hunt. He likes nothing better than the chase. As the song has it, "when he's not near the girl he loves, he loves the girl he's near."

He's perfectly sincere when he tells you he loves you. And he will be perfectly sincere when he tells someone else the same thing the next night. Whatever he believes at the moment is true.

The Sagittarius male has a deserved reputation as the Don Juan of the zodiac. This is not because he has an insatiable sexual desire, but become love to him is an elusive adventure, an unexplored path. He is the archetypal footloose and fancy-free lover searching for his feminine ideal. Along the way he manages to garner more than his share of female admirers who can't help responding to his open, honest, cheerful, intelligent lovemaking. Sagittarius has a captivating sense o humor, and the woman he squires can count on good times.

He's much more likely to ask you to an informal lunch at an outdoor cafe than to a grand dress up dinner. This isn't because he is reluctant to spend money but simply because he prefers the easygoing approach in all things. He hates whatever is artificial, pompous, or pretentious.

If practice made perfect, he'd be the world's best lover. However, he doesn't consider love to be an experience anything like the novelists tell it. He is passionate but not intense: His great quality is enthusiasm, a sense of sheer enjoyment. What bothers him is that everyone else seems to take love so seriously. Why can't everyone be like him—relaxed, buoyant, undemanding?

Very often he isn't interested in marriage or a long-term relationship. He wants to tarry for the fun and laughter, and move on. Happiness for this man is not a fixed goal—it's a way of traveling. If you put enough happy days together, you end up with a happy life!

If he's decided that you're his kind of woman, don't be coy. He doesn't regard a romantic fling as all that important, and he won't understand if you do. If casual amour isn't your style, then maybe Sagittarius isn't for you.

wa lau cannot be right?if only i can be like what they describe la..HAhaz

nice song

2006-10-08T14:25:00.000+08:00

Last time I talked to you,
you were lonely and out of place.

You were looking down on me,
lost out in space.

Laid underneath the stars,
strung out and feeling brave.

Watch the riddles glow,
watch them float away.

Down here in the atmosphere,
garbage and city lights,
you gotta save your tired soul,
you gotta save our lives.

Turn on the radio,
to find you on sattellite,
I'm waiting for the sky to fall,
I'm waiting for a sign.

All we are is all so far.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

Hope you remember me,
when you're homesick and need a change.
I miss your purple hair,
I miss the way you taste.

I know you'll come back someday,
on a bed of nails awake.
I'm praying that you don't burn out,
or fade away.

All we are is all so far

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there, oh.
You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity....

I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me,
the star that I can't see.
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling out of reach,
defying gravity,
I know you're out there,
somewhere out there.

You're falling back to me.

Well I know,
I know.

You're falling out of reach.

I know...

major screw up sia...

2006-10-01T11:57:00.000+08:00

day 1 Oct 2006 time 1151 am

u all must be wondering how am i able to post this entry when im supposed to be in camp doing guard duty. No there isn't a com with internet access in the guard room.No i did not take mc.
No i did not switch duties. Im at home.

Reported last night to camp, screw up 1, the side gate was locked sgt nvr imform us side gate lock on sat nights.waited damn long for guard to open it. Finally booked in. told that no breakfast was indented for us so jus have to eat bicuits in the morning. SBO on, 11b, id tag, fad check, rifle drawn, bayonet secured, we marched to mount guard.Major screw up, there are guards there already, it turns out we dun have to do guard duty after all,so y the fuck did we have to book in last night. so we booked out and here i m posting this entry.

its going to be a long and terrible one year eight month here....

i sincerely need some care and concern now....

2006-09-30T16:17:00.000+08:00

imagine this

it has been a long terrible sucky week in camp...with the usual tekans ,doing sai kang, getting fucked etc etc finally friday comes...u have range on that day therefore the idea of having to book out only on sat morning is already quite down...however u still get at least one whole day plus to urself...thats still something to look forward to...29 sept fri u wake up at 5 am to do sai kang as u are the advance party...u are shagged out from all the shit work even b4 shooting commences....ur rifle sucks gives u IAs like free liek dat...u did not get marksman...u are told to sign on a specific spot by the sgt...u sign...he calls u back telling u u signed wrongly...something is not right liao...shooting ends at 10pm ++.. u continue to do sai kang until 12am++b4 finally heading back to camp...more saikang ...it is already 2am++u are still cleaning ur rifle....sept 30 3am++ last parade... ur sgt still fucks u all up for silly little things...even though everyone is shagged out...he reads outa list of names...ur name is in that list....u learn that u have to do guard duty...the reason u signed wrongly...u think the guard duty is on 13 sept...u think it would be alrite...however he announces again...the reporting time is 2300 on sat 30 sept...which is today...ur blood boils...u are jus to tired to think ot do anything...u finally slp at 3 45am...u wake up at 5 30 am..u fall in..the sgt is late....u wait until 6 30am..he finally arrives....ur breakfast and area cleaning made u bookout at only 8++am...u finally booked out...however u wun get to spend a single night at home...u are going back to camp the very same night...it is going to be a tough week ahead again...

....the cycle repeats...

sian

2006-09-24T20:54:00.001+08:00

will be booking in soon....time is 8 50 pm...day is sunday....weather is nice and cooling...feeling is damn sian ar! want to cry want to die like that....is there like nothing to look forward to?pass few days go out..happy is happy but somehow like not enough...something is like not right le...something jus seems to be missing...somehow i jus feel damn damn sian ar....

ppl say i need a girl in my life la...frankly speaking i oso want le..kao who will dun want...but yet again i dun think a girl is that 'something' which is missing...

anyone out there who knoes any nice girls pls intro le...haha

random tots

2006-09-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

today was certainly a dull a day for reasons i cannot explain wat so ever...time jus went by...tots jus went pass my mind....in life there are times of joy and laughter and of course there are times of pain and sorrow...some of us wish to relive the moment over and over again hope that time jus stops there nvr to continue...yet there are those who wish that none of it happend at all..wishing for the memory jus to fade away...

sometimes we choose to forget ...wishing that things nvr ever happened....ever asked urself again...are u sure u want to forget.....are u certain u wish to forget....

i dpn't know about you ...for me its better to have a painful memory than not to have one at all...

P O P LOEH!!!!!!!!!!(like finally lorzzzzzzzzz)

2006-09-14T12:16:00.000+08:00

Yay finally POPed yesterday hahaz like after so long la...defered for half a year liao went to work at LoL..finally enlisted on 020606 and finally passed out yesterday as a TRAAAAAIIIINNNED SOLDIER!!!! they feelin was really great and all la..the parade...the National flag flapping in the wind....the putting on of the jockey cap by my parents ....the infantry roar ....the tossing of the cap into the air......the sunset as we boarded the ferry at TFT(for the last time hopefully).

NS.... fucked up as it is ....Siong to a certain extend as it is.......is certainly a once in a life time experience...though at times we will be complaining about screwed up training programmes ...the inefficiency of the army how it rushes us to wait and lets us wait to rush...in the end the feeling that you are doing something for your nation....your home...Singapore....its is all worth it....

oh ya mambo night yesterday at zouk was great!haha i think zhi yan will enjoy it a lot and sam will probably enjoy it more than mos.

Y the fuck am i posting on a blog tat no one visits...

2006-07-02T15:56:00.000+08:00

yeah so the time is 3 45pm im awaiting my book in which is at 6 45pm back to lovely tekong chalet...nuthing to do so decided to post this piece of rubbish...

seriously la... lifes been good to me...loving family..... wonderful friends...mighty God who had protected me and gave me comfort for all so long though im not what u call a model christian...who could ask for more la... k la lets be honest there is still the part of me being 18 turning 19 and still being single.. but hey who can i blame but myself la...

So i my point is y the fuck am i feeling so empty?

How Am I Suppose To Live Without You - Michael Bolton

2006-04-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

I could hardly believe it
When i heard the news today
I had to come and get it straight from you
They said you were leavin'
Someone's swept your heart away
From the look upon your face, i see it's true
So tell me all about it, tell me 'bout the
Plans you're makin'
Then tell me one thing more before i go

Chorus:
Tell me how am i suppose to live without you
Now that i've been lovin' you so long
How am i suppose to live without you
How am i suppose to carry on
When all that i've been livin' for is gone

I didn't come here for cryin'
Didn't come here to break down
It's just a dream of mine is coming to an end
And how can i blame you
When i build my world around
The hope that one day we'd be so much
More than friends
And i don't wanna know the price i'm
Gonna pay for dreaming
When even now it's more than i can take

Chorus:

(bridge)
And i don't wanna face the price i'm
Gonna pay for dreaming
Now that your dream has come true

nice song....heres the link to the mtv http://search.music.yahoo.com/search/?p=michael+bolton&m=video

Nothing to post also post....

2006-03-21T23:35:00.000+08:00

k la its seriously been ages since i last blogged so a little update on my life errrrrrrrrrr.... i think theres no need for an update la its basically still the same cept i dun have to worry about A level results anymore yep.... so probably be going to Uni after NS la as for which uni which course well things are still kinda blurryat the moment....

did some soul searching some time ago forgot when and where la..maybe on bus.... on bed.... walking half way or watever la...well i sorta realised that i could really use the advice that i seem to be giving ppl like y wait?y hesitate?live life to the fullest and all the other funny mumbo jumbo i blabber about....

btw an early apology for Sam will probably have an early or late celebration cos yours truly kena work on that day...and jus a disclaimer clebration probably be sucky due to the lack of time...so this goes out to all of sam's friends and bros who caome across this pl contact me if u have any idea on how to celebrate pls...THANK YOU

random crap againzz

2006-01-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

Kaoz…life is so boring recently that I m driven to write this entry even though I dunno wat to put in it…damn k I shall start by kao bei-ng on some stuff recently bahz….

K landed up as an assistant in a lanshop thinking it was a slack job with an average pay….its was true….for the 1st day only though….wa kao u all should have seen the freaking crowd on sat(my 2nd day of work) la the whole place was pack the waiting list was like for 15+coms and kept increasing… so its was one technician to 125+coms …plus I had to check on the ppl playing pool….had to deliver nasi lemak and bee hoon etc etc…the freaking best part was that when I went to the counter….i saw my S o B of a boss watching some freaking canto drama on the freaking laptop..all this while I was being driven like a slave down there ……. TIEW ARHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Nxt I shall move on to the topic about how ugly humans have becomed(inside hor… knn with plastic surgery can still get uglier meh?) seriously la with all this…WTF….i cannot even find a word to put it into ..crap I’ll just call it F*ck then….with all this f*ck going around us the evil we do…the blood-shed…the sleaze(need not elaborate jus go to a club and u will find out)…pollution…betrayal(need i say more?)…are we being punished by nature’s wrath in the form of all this natural disasters that are happening around us? Father, Father help us send some guidance from above……

Well if there is something good guess it will be my dance life ba…hmmm looks like it will be quite a year with all this performances at DI…NHDS going NDP(hope I can like go di siao and help out)…..and they come with an additional bonus(esp the DI Chinese festival thingy) too = P (if u guys knoe wat I mean C= ) HAHAHhaHAhaz

All out of love….become chee kou pei…..

A New Beginning.......

2006-01-02T00:11:00.000+08:00

arhzzz well its a brand new year but guess i m still the same old me ehzzzzzz.....k party last night was BLAST at least for me larhzzz....WOOoooooooHHHHHHHHOooooohoHOOOOoo....though i was the only one who went like high .. was pretty lame but all the same fun i guess WhahhahHAaz...sorry it turned bad for dear old GA ehz?ahhah ended up blogging some sentimental stuff again AHhahahz..cool in way HAahhHAHahz... thx to one and all who came and to those who wished to come but were not able to HAhahz..THANK YOU C=

well so new year guess its the start of new things bahz... like the fact that i have to start paying adult fare which is liek totally a pain in teh ASS omg $3-4 gone in like a single trip down to DI and back.....TIEW LAHHHHHHHH...(pai seh sound liek some himbo) anyway seriously time for me to find some proper work and all bahzzz...time to really slow down one the'HIGH-ness' and reduce teh number of hang-overs......speaking of whcih i feel like crap nowwwwww....

well guess i should like go one with thanking ppl who have impacted life and all bahz...well the prob with me is that i kinda have a hard time identifying them cos i mean EVERYONE seriously EVERYONE whom i met or came to knew made wat i m today....from my Heavenly Father....to my parents.....to my bros......to my teachers....down to the ass-holes i have met in this 18 years of my life...and up to the gurls i ever fancied.......etc ETC

yeah i m not liek darn goo dat such thank you stuff so i guess this little song from SHIN might help in a way i think....though the song was liek meant for a gurl and all so ya sorry i cannot think of any others.....I'll just liek to say 因为有了你们才有了今天的振育。。。。。。。

我聽到海的呼吸
我聽到妳甜蜜的懷疑
我掉入一個陷阱　
我願意　不想逃離
沒有太多的劇情　只相信一瞬間的感應
真心結束了遊戲　想問你　願不願意
我知道你全部的猶豫　我曾經也認不出自己　
從未忘記今生和妳的約定

WOH! 我的世界從此停止了尋覓
WOH! 我的世界從此多了點擔心
因為有妳　因為有妳 (不再猶豫　因為有妳)
我用盡所有的力氣　再苦也能繼續妳的笑給了我勇氣　我會永遠珍惜

PARTY ALERT

2005-12-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

OK this goes out to who ever whom considers me or whom i consider a friend la....

31st December after the NHDS performance at boon lay we go fool around or soemthing watever lahz...drink....fool around...eat...drink.....WATEVER!!!! final destination:zhenyu's house u want to slp or continue high also can...my house the area got a lot of parks and spaces to get high so can bAh....ya so pass the word and yeah cya all there

LETS HAVE FUn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yoa yoe!yao ArH YOu!Yoa yoe!yao ArH YOu!Yoa yoe!yao ArH YOu!

p.s seriously one and all invited bring along friends no prob...make sure they are gurls wahhahahahz

ITS.....CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

2005-12-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

JINGLE BELL DING DONG BELL DING DONG JINGLE BELLS....ITS THE SEASON TO BE JOLYY WAHHAhAHHaHAHAHHAHZZZZZZZZ

Awwwww the most beautiful time of the year …..Christmas…a season about jinglebells….presents….fat old man in red suits and honey baked ham. Hhaha well guess that was in the past to me at least …as a kid la…..X’mas was all about receiving stuff and stuffing myself full at parties and all……

Well now as an 18 year old teenager ….. thinking negatively it would be about getting myself drunk…checking out other drunk gurls and stuff…..jeez AhahAhah to think I call my self a grown up….theresstill this Big Fat Kid Da da dian inside I guess wHahhahaz…..

Yet again sorta finally understood wat it means by that ‘it is better to give then receive….’ I mean k la I m draining my coffers but hey the money spent did make me happy to see those receiving gifts and stuff so happy as well…so yeah AHahha…I mean this IS wat CHRISTMAS is all about GIVING…we celebrate it to remember how Christ gave his life for us….and yet…..and ass hoel like me cannot even be bothered to go to church!!!!! Kaoz……and I call myself a Christian.jeezzzzzzzz

And ya…heard quite a lot of ppl complain about how terrible their holidays turned out to be…like ending up working thru x’mas eve ,x’mas day and even boxing day….well here wat I’ll like to say la…take for example my so called ‘fen si’s la k u all end up working at Mos thru all 3 days….i agree it is a sucky way to spend the holidays la with all this festive stuff and jolliness going around…but hey u guys did make some ppl happy…becos u sacrificed ur holidays to work..the customers got to enjoy ur wonderful delicious burgers AHhahahahah and that is a noble act worthy of Christmas with that I applaud u all *CLAPS APPLAUSE CHEER!!!*wahhHAhAHhAHhaz

Well I knoe it’s a bit late as in its already boxing day but HAPPY HOLIDAYS ALL!!!!!

P.S. LETS ALL PARTY ON NEW YEAR’S EVE(lets start planning already)
P.S.S i promise I wun get drunk wahahhahahahz

peng you

2005-12-17T13:39:00.000+08:00

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares......

thank you for giving me a...happy birthday...

2005-12-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

wa XIAOYU18yrsold loa....wooooooooo....can finally buy alcohol&cigarettes..go clubbing...watch M18 movies....LEGALLY...hahahahHAhAha,..high sia...

k la birthday chalet was a blast la(for me at least ...though some might disagree...)ya had great fun la..one of my best birthdaes..yet i hope hhehhehe....k so initially wanted to sms a thankyou note to all who came....but *lame* realise dun have most of their numbers so decide to blog out this thanbk you note and hope that they will some how come across it lor....

here its goes....THANK YOU to one and all who came to the chalet to celebrate my birthday.....thank you for all ur gifts i loved every single one of them and will cherish each and every one of them....to my brothers thank you.....drinking sessions were damn f*cking fun woooo..though some of u all pang seied me on the last night ar...high arh.....to the underaged ppl sorry nvr organised fun stuff for u all srry u all had to entertain ur self..glad soem of u enjoed the drinks woooo hahah....oh ya srry to the gurls for the use of language throughout the chalet haha

well to friends,to memories and many more to come...KAM SEAH...the 18 year old zhenyu will be nuthing without u guys....

Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art.... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival. ~C.S. Lewis

growing up...

2005-12-02T11:21:00.000+08:00

turning 18 in a few more days..happy in a way...yet very sian...haizzz...maybe im still a kid or wat la...but soon i ll have to take up reposibility as the zhang zi(eldest son)...and i dun think im ready for it...sort ta freaked out a little last night..i mean wat if i flunked my As ?wat if i cannot find a job?...am i gonna freakin leech on my parents ?..hell f*cking no...but yet....wat wtf la m i ready to be a provider?...dun think im ready to shoulder such responsibility...turning 18 soon and i cannot believe im still asking for $ for my birthday.... for my grad night clothes etc etc....wa lau...who expected post -A level life to be so f*cked up....

p.s : to anyone it may concern if got lobang for any job pls contact me thx...

to alcohol the solution... and cause to many of life's problems....

"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go...."

Let It Be(life goes on..)

2005-11-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

well who expected the horoscopes to be so accurate..things settled sooner than i expected but not in my favour.....haha well at least thats one thing settled....if i say i not sad or depressed or wat is confirm fake one la..i m human after all....living breathing with emotions and all.....well life goes on i guess..birds will continue to fly...fishes will continue to swim....ppl will carry on with their lives.....guess all i can say would be let it be......

technically it was my problem to begin with...i sensed it but jus tried to blind my self..hah...at least i did not sink to deep....let it be....... let it be........

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be

who am i?

2005-11-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

I dun want to be treated like a fool …I dun wanna be surrounded by confusion, deceit, imposters every where I turn …. Who am I supposed to be….. I am bugged with identity crisis every where I turn……..the brother?…. the lover wanna-be?…the f*cker?…the person with 2 faces trapped souls trapped in one?…..WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE??!??!?!?!

I don’t wanna be anything other than what I’ve been trying to be lately…all I ever wished is for me to think only about me to have a piece of mind……I am tired searching thru this maze wondering what I've got to do or who I'm supposed to be…I don’t wanna be anything other than me…..

Knowing the path which I would take would be acknowledging part of where I truly came from…….

I don’t wanna be anybody other than me……

Jus kinda wrote this down after some thoughts…with the help of some songs it jus kinda flowed out….

who am i?

2005-11-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

just some thoughts

2005-11-07T23:11:00.000+08:00

in another 14+ hours or so i will be sitting for my 1st A level paper maths..not excatly my best subject and yet im wasting time writing this entry...had only intended to chat online for a while and tehn go to bed but haizzz apparently no one is online...although shes online la but its with an (Away) sign so ya im not a guy who really take chances so ya....

so recently saw sam's blog wa kinda cool..nice little touching entry....GOOD FOR YOU MAN looks liek u really found someoen who really means a lot to u...im sure someday some how things will turn in ur direction so ya press on....shinjite...have some hope......

anyways recently had this little chat about choosing between our bread or our dreams la....so ya kinda think of it..... is this wat i really want? jus get gd results go U get better results then find some job and jus live my life away....but yet the irony for me is that i hardly have dreams either i would call myslef a jack of all trades and definitely a master of none......a little bit talented in art..nvr finishing a master piece....can whip up a decent meal..nvr good enough to be a chef....terrible in dance only can shake my butt.....can act but cannot be actor.....can study but nvr a scholar....can sing but nvr a musician....decent gamer....but still lose to loads of ppl....can do sports but my tubby self is getting in the way.... has some decent humour nvr a comedian.....wants to inspire ppl but nvr wanting to voice out....so ya who m i to complain that Singapore does nto give me a chance to pursue my dreams when i dun even have one to start with...haiz.....jus evrything about me is very here but not there, there but nvr here.....guess the worst bit is that my mum although understanding i dun think will accept me getting horrible results for As la..i mean wa kao even my cousin liek that also go U if i cannot tehn lan lan liao lor.....jeeezzzz

well enough of that crap ya so heres an announcement hope ppl who see thsi spread the word on the 8-10 dec i will be having a chalet cum party for my birthday .........chalet is booked already so spread the word guys...and if u guys do pls invite decent ppl only...but if got mei nu friends feel free to bring them a long......anyways may need some help with thsi la so i will start preps after As hope most of u can help in anyway possible..btw its a NH ONLY party so if any SA pricks see this sorry ur not invited......

all the best to one and all in wat ever u doing

untitled

2005-09-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

its been ages since i last posted anything up...well about the title of this entry basically got 2 reasons la

1st one is becos really got no idea wat to blog about just felt like writing some crap down so ya....

2ndly is becos of this song by simple plan called'untitled' la..ya about this song...hmmmzzz nice lyrics i must say.....when i 1st read them i was like wa kao this excatly reflects my feelings now la(and i believe wat most teens are feeling as well)....it also has a nice mtv btw haha...well basically wat i infered from this song is about a guy regretting his actions la(a little help from the mtv as well about some guy going drunk driving and knock some gal down)... so ya after hearing the song i felt that i dun want to end up like this guy la knn do something wrong liaoz then regret this regret that... kao bei kao bei still write some song some more......so i have decided to pick myself up...right here right now.. i m going to do sumthing about it....this may sound corny but ya im doing all i can to be a better man....

came a across a couple of blogs recently hmm looks like most of our lives quite sad arh...tough time most ppl going thru now....well came across this quote la.....

"Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed"

dunno wat u guys would make out from it may be sumthing maybe nuthing..persoanlly i felt that its telling me dun give up push on u would reaping ur fruits soon...be a SURVIVOR in Life.....

Gd Luck All..God Bless...

IGNORE THIS AS WELL

2005-08-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

CAUTION:XiAoYu WILL BE UNSTABLE FOR THE NXT FEW DAYS......MAYBE EVEN WEEKS.........SO PLS BECAREFUL.........

unleash the fucker within MmuUwuahHAhAHhHAhaHA...........feeling so numb.....stars.....fireworks.......chio bu.......dun seem to be helping......damn......time to unleash the fucker within me MUuwAhsaHHHAHAhAHha

FUCK YOU WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IGNORE THIS

2005-08-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

empty.......feeling empty.....theres a void somewhere someplace in me that just makes me feel so shitty all over.....dunno how to freakin describe this feeling...all i can think of is just the word 'empty'.....just like a donut iwth a hole in the middle...nuthin seems to be capable of feeling up that thing...haha wierd analogy.......bahzz wat am i toking about......

just wanna drift away..fade away....escape from reality......

Is this The End???(hope not...)

2005-08-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

Broken

Crumbling

Dysfunctional

Guys relax i m not talking about myself larz hahaha...ya my life is kinda screwed up now la but hey thats a story for another day, another time i guess haha....ya so what excatly is turning to a Broken Crumbling and Dysfunctional?.....well sorry to say this but ya.....its my favourite NHDS that is becoming this Broken, Crumbling and Dysfunctional pile of Ash larz....well at least to me its becoming so la so ppl who disagree or who are already du lan by my comment pls do not continue reading.....

k shall start with the most up and coming event the elections for the next commitee....wa kao....ppl u all claim to be 'brothers'(refer to 2nd entry 'brother' for more reference on this word) at first say want to fight together for the common good of NHDS......sadly this is not wat i m seeing larzzzz.....u guys r so fucking fake la......knn in front of each other brother brother then behind each others back bad mouth each other.....k larz maybe i mouthed it wrongly or rather i should say u ppl should at least have a little faith in ur so called 'brothers' la wa lau...u all keep on suspect this and that ..keep suspecting different ppl trying to rule NHDS jus becos they gave some orders or jus becos they gaining popularity .....pls la u call ur self BROTHERS then WTF wheres the FAITH... the TRUST is this so called brotherhood of urs? seriously u this backstabbing and political shit i see in ur batch is making me view what i once thought was a batch with rather high potential as a batch full of hypocrites and assholes no different from that DOG with H initial.... k so the point is pls la its just an election does it really matter who gets what post?who holds a higher post?who wields more power? NO definitely not........ each of u can either make things work, make NHDS a better place by sticking and working together as a TEAM as BROTHERS or u can just screw everything up and let NHDS crumble to bits by continueing all your stupid childish little political freaking son of a gun games....so pls sec3s of 2005(doubt any of u reading but hey i'll take my chances) i knoe among u all are ppl who are just vying for a place in the freaking NHDS commitee...well my guess is that u just want to be remembered as the batch who saved NHDS from the pits of HELL izzit?...well NEWS FLASH if u continue to play those stupid childish little political son of a gun games u WILL be remembered as the batch that brought NHDS to its knees.....so ppl PLS WAKE UP ur childish and selfish little ideas..think about the BIG picture(future of nhds in case u still un aware) and work TOGETHER towards that goal...

Next would be u ppl's attitude as a dancer(not everyone la jus some black sheeps) pls la i dun care if u got gold with honours for syf i dun care if u are a freaking active dancer at DI i dun care if u are one of a centre figures for dance performaces in DI or NHDS ....... pls dun throw ur weight around la when ppl(Mr Low, Seniors,ur peers etc etc) give u a piece of advice on stuff may it be on ur dacne steps or on misc stuff pls take that persons advice la.....pls dun display ur bo chap heck care attitude just because U THINK u r a 'better' dancer than he or she....u may be a pro ballet dancer(no particular reference to any ballet dancers no offence) some where else i dun care if u throw tantrums or display ur da shao ye or da xiao jie attitude over there but when u coem to NHDS behave like a NH dancer..at least show some repsect to ppl around....pls la....

k la talk too much liao i think knn like ah peh like that...bahs last point i want to emphasise(pai seh for spelling error) again...each of us have our different strengths some at dancing some at admin work some at other stuff......u may not be the best dancer like Zhong Yi or Kai Wei u may not make the best leader like Sam or Wei Hong u may not be able to do backstage oand props stuff like Daryl....u may be those that neither here nor there one the best example would be me la cannot really diao a dance neither can i talk about discipline to u guys....but at least i try at certain times at .....least i put my heart in for the well being of this society..... i demostrate my passion for a better future for this society....and i believe that measn something.....so those ppl that feel taht u are lousy or wat ..DUN feel that way...u are u and thats wat makes it special... this society cannot and will not make do without each and everyone of u...its not only the exco that runs the NHDS show..its each and evryone of us...if u would just put in a bit of ur passion.... a bit of ur heart and soul into it.. it would all add up to form this wonderful thing call HOPE...

with HOPE i believe NHDS would just like a phoenix rise up from the ashes and soar once again in all its might adn glory with a burning heart of passion.....

Hope its not the end.......All for Dance guys.......

Lets Make It All for...............

2005-07-17T16:22:00.000+08:00

All For Love by Bryan Adams

When it's love you give
(I'll be a man of good faith.)
Then in love you live.
(I'll make a stand. I won't break.)
I'll be the rock you can build on,
Be there when you're old,
To have and to hold.

When there's love inside
(I swear I'll always be strong.)
Then there's a reason why.
(I'll prove to you we belong.)
I'll be the wall that protects you
From the wind and the rain,
From the hurt and pain.

Let's make it all for one and all for love.
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.

When it's love you make
(I'll be the fire in your night.)
Then it's love you take.
(I will defend, I will fight.)
I'll be there when you need me.
When honor's at stake,
This vow I will make:

That it's all for one and all for love.
Let the one be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show
And make it all for one and all for love.

Don't lay our love to rest
'Cause we could stand up to you test.
We got everything and more than we had planned,
More than the rivers that run the land.
We've got it all in our hands.

Now it's all for one and all for love.
(It's all for love.)
Let the one you hold be the one you want,
The one you need,
'Cause when it's all for one it's one for all.
(It's one for all.)
When there's someone that should know
Then just let your feelings show.
When there's someone that you want,
When there's someone that you need
Let's make it all, all for one and all for love.

this was the song played during the stepping down ceremony of SAJC's 27th student council...and for once they got something right!this song haha, well i loved the tune and when i checked out the lyrics i was in love with it haha.

well the song mentions something about giving it all for love.. in my opinion this also applies to how ppl give it all out for their passion or love ones for example how Ah Sam gives it all out for NHDS..how Daryl gives it all out for his 'children'..how Zhong Yi gives it all out for Dance stuff...

ermmm so what i m hoping is that any past or current NHDS members who chance upon this blog to give it all out for NHDS...hope this song will inspire to do that... and also that whenever u ppl need help of any sort just ask and it will be given....let the legend live on C=

'One Family UnbrokenWe join in One Acclaim, One Heart One Voice uplifting to Glorify Thy Name'
(adapted from SAJC college hymn, Thy in this case refers to NHDS la)

Let's make it all, all for one and all for Dance.

P.S :i must be really bored posting sumthing like this...HAahHAHAhAhaah well nvm....anyway hope the post above would also help u all in other areas in ur life.....

How F*cked up is Your LIFE??

2005-07-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

its been a while since the last post...couple things happened lor such as my sucky bt2 results...horrible results...errr parents pestering about my RESULTS!!!!!rarrrrrrr wa lan(i knoe it sounds stupid)but this kicked me into a very i would say errr 'wierd' version of XiAoYu lor(the great no more)....haha everytime kao bei this kao bei that..sumtimes start acting like an idiot hahaha.and sometimes even find my self buayaing with gurls ....i mean wtf la zhenyu leh do this kind of thing hahhahaha......k enough the point was that i started to think that my life was in a mess la...very f*cked up

why do i say this leh?...well the following points should explain:
1)122 days to A levels and my results are not getting me anywhere.....dun want to disappoint a lot of ppl... family ..friends ........myself......

2)17 years liao still a lonely soul HAHHAHahA *STUNNING* right ya la im still single la nvr stead b4 or anithing(or rather i should say no surprise la).....=P STUPID haha probably y i m such a chee hong these few days..keep buayaing ppl la..hAHhaHaha...anyway this is just a minor point la

3)Dun knoe y but i dun seem to have like something happening going on in my life....this can be elaborated by the fact that i just seem to be going back NHDS and hanging out at 3-4 am in the morning talking about matters that would not benefit me in anyway like NHDS again......hhahah =P..this one serious ar haha dun knoe how any suggestions ppl?

well the point is i was just thinking about how f*cked up my life was la.....then these few dasy loads of stuff happened which made me think again that hey ..LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL...

1st up was the nkf preformance la...i was there as an xtra la hahaha stand there kao bei ppl and stuff la... then i saw all those cancer patients in person la my heart just stopped for a moment la la......u see ppl young young not even pri school loaded with all kinds of sickness ...wa then u see the faces of their parents all look so haggard, stressed but when that kid got to see all those celebs in person he was like over the moon la....his face showed so much happiness adn joy even when he was having seriouslky a f*cked up life la...then i started thinking again la(i knoe this very cliche)......wa life has been good to me la..no major sickness watso eva ..family members also healthy healthy happy happy haha...

2nd was my cousin's birthday yesterday la...at his party he gave a speech which actually made my eyes watered la... he talked about how he has to wonderful parents caring grand parents a great paternal and maternal family......how his happiest moments in life was when he was in school with his buddies etc etcla..well then it reminded me of my life as well lor the tot of my matrenal grandma who shielded me frm my mum when she caned me..how my parents would try their best to sen dme to school on time everyday risking their drivers license haha..the wonderful times i had with all u wonderful NAN HUA ppl esp BROTHERS from NHDS....how my family alwasy tried to give me the best....haha even my younger bro did wonderful stuff for me b4....arrr life has been rather good to me i would say....

well the last thing was this movie called LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL...its an italian film about how a jewish father tried to protect his sons from the horrors of a nazi detention camp by telling him that it was a game where they could win a tank.......haha i knoe it sounds lame but i seriously rcommend this movie the guy buayaing skills quite power b4 he kena caught la(maybe some of u guys can pick up a thing or 2)hahaha...well he made the whole detention camp experience for his son as enjoyable as possible even when he was carried off to be shot he still signalled his son in a playful cheerful way.....hah aiya i think i say until u all also blur la u all msut watch la its really good.......

well then LIFE can be good or bad la i seriously think is just how we look at it positively or negatively..are we the ppl who look at half a glass of water and think ' i only have half-glass of water left' or are we the those who think'hey there is still a water in the glass to drink' hahaha well i think we sometimes just have to sit back and be thankful for the stuff that we take for granted la..

oh ya i knoe i alwasy say this but hope u guys seriously use my solution to all problems... when the boat reach the bridge confirm plus gurantee straight 1...well i knoe sometimes this nvr works but hey we may just be waiting at the wrong bridge or waiting for the wrong boat...and wat happens if u keep waiting at the wrong bridge or wrong boat?u try again cos Life is the sum of all of our choices it is what we make of it, always has been, always will be......

so f*cked up is ur life?hope its not as f*cked up as b4 C=

Awaiting Judgement.....

2005-06-30T23:45:00.000+08:00

haizzzzzz block test 2 finally over liaozzz wa should be like feeling happy la but haha looks like i m not la.hmmm still dun have confidence in the papers except econs(as usual)....as for maths it was just as terrible haha...guess i just need more practice ...i guess....

so well evaluation on this times bt2 hmmm studied.... put in considerable amount of effort into the understanding of the topics...MUCH MORE practice NEEDED for BETTER RESULTS(some memorisation of topics may be needed esp for Chem) in all 4 subjects.... time management skills to be improved for all sorts of MCQS... better planning for econs essays....well as Mr Choo used to say'if u fail to plan ,u plan to fail'....haha how true without planning guesss my essays would have turned out to be much more crappy than its current state...haiz but this planning ate into my time wa lau still cannot believe i answered a 13 mark essay in 5 mins la haha but probably gonna get crappy marks for doing that hAHhAHa......

RRAAAAAaaaaaaarrrrrr well wats done cannot be undone la..come to think of it mr low got say b4 before problems appear dun ponder on why it happened, how it happend etc etc la LOOK FOR A SOLUTION...if u have a problem DEAL WITH IT.....dun sit and stare at it waiting for it to disappear..... ok TARGET:at least 2 As and all passes in Prelims(am i aiming too low or high?well haha i think its fine la...)

next is to those who come across this blog and who also like me results not that fantastic la.....well guys in my opinion we have to do 1 thoink that is rather i would say loserish la haha but yeah must mug la... funny to thinking about it how most muggers grades not bad although their thinking during classes rather slow...hgahah well out of point...but yeah i bel;ieve a moderate amount of mugging should do us good..oh ya come to think of it best example of successful mugger Kelvin Choy Kum Fai used to memorise whole D&T text book but still get lower than Zhenyu in D&T tests(may apply to some other subjects b4 O levels as well haha [hao lian =P])but ppl now in SAJC top 20 students leh when my chem like Es an Ds his is 80 +++++ WTF right? hahha

wa now my brain starting to think that all this may be impossible haha then i thought of some thing 'Impossible is just an Opinion it is not a fact.Nothing is Impossible' yup its the addidas ad....well may have to write this and stick it up my room wall or something...

oh ya for those who like me having low self esteem now' Failure is an event, never a person '
haha this may sound corny and all but lets work towards a brighter and better future but before that its time to have some play and fun...enjoy the sort break before returning to the fight....and as i awwait my judgement went i get back results on wednesday i think well good luck all...

Random Crap

2005-06-19T00:15:00.000+08:00

WaSAaaaaaaaeeeee holidays drawing to and end loa onli 1 more week left....wa sian cannot believe it time really flies la half way thru jc2 already haha and damn studies not very steady lea....jc in my opinion seriously too fast liao lahz to me its as if i just got my O level results lor :P haha......

anyways since we are on the topic on how time flies by i think it seriously does.wa my youth is ending soon la haha starting to age already siannzzzzzzz haha for those who noticed my hairline sort of receeded by 2 inches thus making my forehead grow by 2 inches woooo luo han yu HAhaHaha ok...not funny.....and the worst thing is i dun thing i have done much..well i had great times but not to the extent of GREAT GREAT haha so ya.... quite disappointed with myself hmmmmm well guess i should start living on the principles of CARPE DIEM (SEIZE THE DAY) live life to its fullest la seriously i dun want to wait until when i m old and drinking prune juice out from a straw thru my nose only to realise that i did not have any impact on the lives of other ppl...i sort of want to be a SOMEBODY la hahaha not just another random misecellanious person in the lives of others... well guess wat Maito Gai from the jap manga Naruto said is true la 'Youth waits for no one ...'i think.....hahaha.....

Well if there was one thing which i would considered GREAT GREAT would be me joining Nan Hua Dance Society(NHDS) though i did not play a major part in it during my time there i feel that joining NHDS was one of the BEST things that ever happended to me C=... i met Great ppl there some of which are my Brothers now and forever wooo hahaahaha that to me is GREEAAAATTT... and Mr Low did teach me a lot on life etc etc...

well now that we are on the topic of NHDS i would like to elaborate a bit on its current situation la....wa dance now i wun say its the most fantastic but jus as great i would say.. ppl there a lot of potential but most jus either childish or haven wake up yet... for the haven't wake up yet ppl right seriously la this is a major shocker larzz after SYF liaoz after the so called Baptism recieved during the training for SYF they still haven't wake up ...i dun knoe wat to say larzzz hahaha well different times liao i guess haha dunno la i mean last time i slack i also knoe when mr low is around NEVER slack la but now the ppl ar wahszzzzz they got balls la i would say haha(NOTE:to current nhds dancers if any... this DOES NOT mean u CAN slack even when Mr low not around)
hey im not saying that we are better than the current batch or wat la i jus belive u all have potential to do better so y not?seriously i dun wish to see nhds gone when i end my ns...so ppl in nhds now pls play a part in this eternal story for dance everyone can be a part of it u dun have to be commitee or wat to make a difference in NHDS...ROCK ON!!!(or rather DANCE ON!!! haha ok not funny...)

well to those who chanced upon this entry i present u with 3 quotes

the first one is telling us to live life to its fullest:

And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. ~Abraham Lincoln

the second to tell nhds dancers everyone can play a part :

Everybody can be great. Because anybody can serve. You don't have to have a college degree to serve. You don't have to make your subject and your verb agree to serve.... You don't have to know the second theory of thermodynamics in physics to serve. You only need a heart full of grace... one full of passion. A soul generated by hope....generated by love ~Martin Luther King, Jr.

the last and i think most impt 1 telling all of us WE CAN DO IT!!!

I am looking at men who have an infinite capacity to not know what can't be done. ~Henry Ford

L . O . V . E

2005-06-07T23:58:00.000+08:00

hey guys ok so recently i've been exposed to loads of stuff relating with this wonderful and funny little thing called LOVE... NO!!! sorry to disappoint u guys but NO!!! im not in Love or anything la haha anyways so here we go.

Seriously Love is something that is rather contraversial and it is a Freakin' HUGE topic we can just go on for days on brotherly Love,Love from God,love from out Parents etc etc... well tonight I'll be talking about the kind of Love that most youngersters are confused over nowadays la... yup about the birds and the bees; about Boys and Girls; BGR(though not really true nowadys it can be BBR or GGR wateva haha story for another day) k the point is we are talking about Romance tonight ladies and gentlemen.

The age in which teenagers are getting into relationships is seriously going down la. nowadays we have ppl going steady at like pri school(even kindergarten??not sure i think i've heard about it);french kissing by the age of 12( a WAY over estimate);petting and public display of affection during their sec 1 to 2years(its a fact) etc etc ya guess u all get the idea la... so my friends do this ppl (or rather kids)really understand wat Love is all about?? well if u poppedthem the question their answer would most probably be sumthing like this 'Yes!!!of course i Do .. I Love so and so with all my heart blah bbalh blah(some even quote words from the movie moulin Rouge e.g "all u need is love....")'...well then..... they must be a super evolved species of homo sapiens(dunno how its spelled nvm..) with such sophisticated and advanced level of undertsanding such that they managed to solve the mystery that really has been going on for centuries 'What is Love all about???'... well i m not saying that i doubt their word la but the facts is we have ppl like:

1)Mr Smszszs:Fools around with other girls when He has a perfectly happy relationship...after that when the girlfriend breaks up with him he goes crying; screaming; regretting; saying saying how he only loved and still loves the gurl; how she is his one and only blah balh balh even claimed that the 'rumours'(i must say were very factual)were fake...

2)Mr Gun: Some guy who thinks Love is nuthin more but a game .......thinks he is some freakin good looking casanova or don juan like charater when even frankenstien(a cleaner who is working in nh)looks better then him. ya so mr gun basically hunts for gurls toys around with them(rumoured that he even bedded some of them = x ) and then dumps them leaving behind crying,depressed and all...

3)Sir CW: Goes for the chase and then when the gurl is his he jus leaves her there.....end of story

4)Some B*tch who i forgot the name: Female version of Mr Gun claims most of the guys are just one of her many 'boy-friends' nuthin about going steady....rumoured to be one of the gurls who actually managed to hurt adn get back at Mr Gun WOOOoooo(cool but just a b*tch at the same time)

5)random, miscenallioues(sorry bout the spelling again) ppl u may encounter in your daily lives knowingly or unkowningly

6)PLS SKIP THIS POINT IF U ARE BELOW THE AGE OF 16!!!!
Menaces to Society: Saw this mud and mina couple getting off the bus when i was boarding 97, top deck was occuppied only by them b4 i boarded.....mud guy was adjusting his pants mina was wiping sumthing off her mouth....went to the back seat found "stuff" on the seat(get the idea?appraoch me if u dun) .....they dun look much older than i m.....

well the list can go on and on till the end of time... so my friends here is wat i personally think Love is ... it can be summarised into this song by Nat King Cole below:

L is for the way you Look at me
O is for the Only one I see
V is Very, very extraordinary
E is Even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart and please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

its a pretty cool song la... well to end of this post i would like to share sumthing i learned when i used to be in church.You CHOOSE to Love somebody... You dun DECIDE on Loving someone u dun go around decideing hmm maybe i decide to love sally today maybe i will only love joyce tommorow.

One more thing... DUN do stupid stuff (wateva it maybe) in the name of LOVE pls u r just Defiling it.....

Spread the LOVE all.... in this screwed up society we are living in... guess its wats we all really need ... just a little LOVE(in this case any kind of love goes)

NOTE:wat u have jus read is purely from my point of view no offence to anyone dead or alive....

'Brother'

2005-06-03T23:24:00.000+08:00

broth·er (brr)
n. pl. broth·ers
1. A male having the same parents as another or one parent in common with another.
2. pl. often breth·ren (brrn) One who shares a common ancestry, allegiance, character, or purpose with another or others, especially:
a. A kinsman.
b. A fellow man.
c. A fellow member, as of a fraternity, trade union, or panel of judges on a court.
d. A close male friend; a comrade.

3. pl. often brethren Something, such as a corporation or institution, that is regarded as a member of a class: "A station that ... relies on corporate contributions or advertising to survive runs the risk of becoming virtually indistinguishable from its commercial brethren" W. John Moore.
4. Ecclesiastical
a. Abbr. Br. or Bro. A member of a men's religious order who is not in holy orders but engages in the work of the order.
b. A lay member of a religious order of men.
c. pl. often brethren A fellow member of the Christian church.

well of all the words in the english dictionary the word 'brother' is certainly one which most singaporean youths commonly use nowadays to address each other. most of u may have heard other variations of this word such as 'bro' , 'bradder'(common in certain minority groups like *errrermm*malays*errmm*) or we even have certain groups addressing themselves 'brotherhood'(for watever reason wat so ever).

To further elaborate i would mention a few examples.(this word is clearly being abuseGRrRrrR)

1)when a complete stranger approaches you and addresses you as "hey brother..."(most of these ppl include salesmen or punks begging for cigarettes)

2)ppl asking a favour from u when u not really close to them maybe jus friends but instead they like to address u as "hey brother, xiong di xiong di can help me out or not..."

My point is the word 'BROTHER' means a LOT to ppl like me. The word is reserved for my Very VERY SPECIAL EXCLUSIVE group of BROTHERS(dun need say u all also know who la)!!! We deserve to call each other brothers cos we have been thru times of shit and times of laughter Together.We are more than friends(not in a gay way....), like friends + comrades then level up,level up .... some more hahaha hard to understand la(refer to sam's bog for more details).

so pls dun any old how use that word in front of me (not trying to be cocky,but looks like i m) it jus irritates me and makes me feel wierd when ppl do so i guess haha....

Well to end this post i will quote something from Band of Brothers(originally from Henry V):

"....from this day 'til the ending of the world.... we in it shall be remembered. We few, we happy few, we Band of Brothers. For thou who sheds his blood by my side today shall be my BROTHER..."

My Maiden Post

2005-05-29T23:00:00.000+08:00

WoOoOOOoo xiaoyu finally starts blogging( WoWOOwOWo haha wateva..... seriously nvr in my past 17 yrs on Earth would i eva have tot that i enter the wonderful world of blogging. In fact i used to be against bloggers in the past hahaha so kinda a bit of a hypocrite or watever here HahAHahA.

Ya so basically this blog will be on how xiaoyu here craps and kao beis about life and wats going on in this society that we are living in la....so my nxt post would probably be hmmmmm 2-3 days later haha maybe even longer......A LAZY person i m.......so God Bless to anyone who chances upon this crazy little space of xiaoyu la HahaHAHhAHahHAhah